Confession 11.0

I rear ended someone this evening.

Just dropped John off at the airport for a week's long business trip to Cali, and decided to pop in and see my sister, who I hadn't seen in months. Be the bigger person and all. I was looking for her phone number in my cell phone and BAM! I rear ended someone. Didn't even see her. I was shocked by the sound - had no idea what was going on. Looked behind me, and there's the person I hit, smashed up against a stone apartment sign ..... Great.

So. No one in my van was hurt. The woman I hit did go to the hospital, but I think it was just precautionary. I'm trying to not be cynical and think she's going to try and bilk my insurance company out of money. I DID screw up her vehicle pretty badly. Front and rear. I felt really small and stupid. Got a ticket, too, of course, which I totally deserved. So I am looking at almost $800 because I decided to go see my sister instead of just going home.

Great. Just fucking great.

AND I bit off all my nails like two weeks ago. Auburn lost their bowl game, and when I got my first paycheck that had my raise on it, the raise was a dollar less than I was told. My boss put it off as being dyslexic. So sorry and all...

Sigh.

But, my wonderful mother and law was helpful with "it's only money, and no one was hurt". Yeah, it's only money - but that's a lot easier for her to say than it is for me!!!! Luckily we have the money, but it WAS earmarked for something else. And she really is wonderful. I am just feeling reaaaaaalllly sorry for myself right now. Though I shouldn't be. I didn't have to go to the hospital or have my car probably totalled.

DAMN!!!!!

John got bumped to first class on his flight, too, and he was really excited. I know I ruined that, too. : (

I feel like a big fucking loser.